This is a follow-up to my uncertain post quite a few months ago.  At the time, I thought that life could not possibly become any worse and yet, here we are… Again.  I find myself to be lost and full of so many powerful emotions that it is difficult to focus on just one emotion to overcome.  Still, I get up every day and make the most of what life has dealt me.  I try to listen to my inner self (and my doctors) and take the time I need for myself.  This is time for me to be selfish… Also again.

I am absolutely my own worse critic.  I am way hard on myself, and I constantly am trying to live up to this idyllic version of myself who is always happy, in control, and certain.  So below i a list of things that I am certain about:

• I am certain that I am in a good relationship with a good person.  I really don’t want anyone else for myself.  As he told me, we’ll get through this.
• I am certain that I will accomplish my goals.  Good student was once my middle name, and while I may not now be the best student ever, I am once again, a good student.  By my own fucking standards.  I am immensely proud of the progress that I have made and the direction that I have taken for myself.
• I am certain that this- whatever it is -will too pass.  The feelings that I have been feeling are indescribable.  However, I truly believe in God, and I believe that the best is yet to come.

xoxox,

DB