This is a follow-up to my uncertain post quite a few months ago.  At the time, I thought that life could not possibly become any worse and yet, here we are… Again.  I find myself to be lost and full of so many powerful emotions that it is difficult to focus on just one emotion to overcome.  Still, I get up every day and make the most of what life has dealt me.  I try to listen to my inner self (and my doctors) and take the time I need for myself.  This is time for me to be selfish… Also again.

I am absolutely my own worse critic.  I am way hard on myself, and I constantly am trying to live up to this idyllic version of myself who is always happy, in control, and certain.  So below i a list of things that I am certain about:

• I am certain that I am in a good relationship with a good person.  I really don’t want anyone else for myself.  As he told me, we’ll get through this.
• I am certain that I will accomplish my goals.  Good student was once my middle name, and while I may not now be the best student ever, I am once again, a good student.  By my own fucking standards.  I am immensely proud of the progress that I have made and the direction that I have taken for myself.
• I am certain that this- whatever it is -will too pass.  The feelings that I have been feeling are indescribable.  However, I truly believe in God, and I believe that the best is yet to come.

xoxox,

DB

  
 Ahhh it’s been so. so. long.  I know, what kind of blogger am I? How could I ever in life take this long of a break from my passion?  Well, let me try to explain before you lovely people bite my head off. 🙂
The past…. long while has been quite the rollercoaster.  In approximately 2 ish years I have gone through what has seemingly been hell and back.  In my post, “Breaking the Cycle,” I mentioned that there were some bad habits that I needed to get rid of and that I would no longer practice certain behaviors.  That went well, for a spell, anyway.  Unfortunately, tried and true, I began exhibiting some of these behaviors and habits again- struggling with depression/anxiety, money management when I really didn’t have any, time management as a full-time student AND a full-time employee, a horrible relationship, and the death of my great-grandma.  All of these things kept being thrown at me, from all different directions!   Needless to say, looking back, it’s almost no surprise that I ended up not receiving financial aid because of issues with college credits, thus having to move home Summer 2014.  

That was probably the hardest decision that I have ever had to make- a) stay in D.C. struggling, trying to get back into school or b) move home with Daddy-nem and have a fresh start. I’m SO GLAD I MOVED BACK HOME.  At first, of course, I felt dejected, beaten down, hopeless even.  Now, a year and a half later I fee wiser, STRONGER, lifted up.  I said in that last post that I was “…officially ridding myself of bad habits that continuously plague me in order to move into the next phase of my life, adulthood.”  Finally, I can say that I’m absolutely that, an adult.  

Now I’m working towards earning my degree by transferring to a cheaper state school closer to home, I’m near my supportive ass family, my time/money management is better than ever (disclaimer: BETTER not totally awesome, bill Gates level, lol!), and I have the most loving, supportive, grown man, beard having sexy boyfriend ever.  (Us getting together…? That’s a story for another time 😉 

All of this to say, I am honestly and truly #blessed.  I must say that the #glowup is real, and I cannot wait to see what this beautiful year ahead has to offer! Well wishes per usual! Xoxoxo

Hey y’all!
Gee, my bad, I haven’t updated in quite some time. What with my fairly new job, finishing spring semester, and getting my shit together, I simply haven’t had a chance to connect with y’all. It’s that time of year again when sunburns, pool parties, and cookouts are common. There’s one difference, however: I’m partaking in all of these things FROM THE EAST COAST. I would never have imagined NOT spending a summer in California. It’s a new experience, from the huge insects to the humid weather to the random thunderstorms. This summer also has a few other meanings: coming-of-age and changes. 2011 has already been a groundbreaking year for me as far as becoming more mature and responsible and independent. I’m sure plenty of other things are in store as well. What summer was your most memorable or pivotal and why? Let’s share and discuss. Talk to you soon! Adios! ❤